Confidence is key,
a sentence that inspires me.
But how am I getting through life,
without that sole key?
I don't possess it,
nor does it possess me.
It's missing.
What did I miss out on in life,
that made me lack this confidence.
That made me lack the ability,
to
just
be
me.
Confidence is key,
where could all my confidence be?
Surely I was blessed with some,
but now,
it's gone.
3.14.2011
3.12.2011
First Draft
Note: We have to write poems for my English class, and I wanted to try doing my first draft on here
Drained.
Shattered.
Regret.
That's all I can feel.
All I hear is the torment I have to endure now.
Harlot.
I feel worthless.
Life came crashing down,
all in one night.
One night.
Full of lies,
the feel of violation.
My trust in mankind is gone.
So many things happened,
when I was just too vulnerable.
Too weak, and weary.
Now I look like a fool.
I've been taken advantage of,
and all I can do is deal with these tears,
alone.
I'm just a little girl.
A lost little girl.
Drained.
Shattered.
Regret.
That's all I can feel.
All I hear is the torment I have to endure now.
Harlot.
I feel worthless.
Life came crashing down,
all in one night.
One night.
Full of lies,
the feel of violation.
My trust in mankind is gone.
So many things happened,
when I was just too vulnerable.
Too weak, and weary.
Now I look like a fool.
I've been taken advantage of,
and all I can do is deal with these tears,
alone.
I'm just a little girl.
A lost little girl.
3.03.2011
Today We Talked of Death...
Today we talked of death.
Those far,
those near.
In my life I've been to a few funerals, who hasn't?
Family, and one family friend.
Billy Griggs.
At all of the funerals of family members I've been to, I've never felt much remorse.
I either was too young to grasp the whole concept of death,
Or I truely wasn't close.
But,
The funeral of Billy Griggs was the most touching funeral to me.
Albeit, I was never that close to him, considering he was my cousin's boyfriend,
I got to know him.
Right there,
As he lay in his casket.
I heard all the music he listened to, and relaized we had a connection.
Jack's Mannequin.
It was eeire,
Here was this man, I never really knew,
But now, I knew him.
I looked back on when I danced with him at a wedding,
And I just cried.
Not for me,
For everyone else.
I realized how great this loss was.
And I finally cried.
Those far,
those near.
In my life I've been to a few funerals, who hasn't?
Family, and one family friend.
Billy Griggs.
At all of the funerals of family members I've been to, I've never felt much remorse.
I either was too young to grasp the whole concept of death,
Or I truely wasn't close.
But,
The funeral of Billy Griggs was the most touching funeral to me.
Albeit, I was never that close to him, considering he was my cousin's boyfriend,
I got to know him.
Right there,
As he lay in his casket.
I heard all the music he listened to, and relaized we had a connection.
Jack's Mannequin.
It was eeire,
Here was this man, I never really knew,
But now, I knew him.
I looked back on when I danced with him at a wedding,
And I just cried.
Not for me,
For everyone else.
I realized how great this loss was.
And I finally cried.
2.09.2011
2.08.2011
Never Say Forever...
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss
Honestly, I miss Samantha Dinga. Her and I were best friends since the moment I moved here, to the moment I screwed everything up the summer between 8th and 9th grade. I had a dream the other night that I saw her somewhere and she started sort of crying (She's not one for crying, and I still remember how hurt I was the first time she did, I cried with her) and then she said she missed me and I admitted I did too, and we hugged and made up and were all okay again, and it was super awesome. I miss my best friend a lot.
2.07.2011
2.06.2011
2.05.2011
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