Being Forgotten

Lately I've been feeling down, I feel like I'm that one person in the group who no one actually likes. You know, the one that's just there. It's really bumming me out, and I feel like everything I know is a lie. I feel like the people who I think are my friends, are secretly ditching me and talking about how lame I am. Maybe I am lame, and maybe I do piss people off sometimes, but who doesn't. Plus, it's just me. It's how I've always been, and half the time I can't even control how I fucking act! It isn't my fault I'm crazy like this. But when I feel this alone is the times I do shit to get attention and when I wish someone would just send me away to The Brook so maybe someone would miss me and realize they like me or some shit like that. I'm just sick of this, and I hate feeling alone in a room full of people. This is horrid.